Pink Jewel thoughts

In body language, a completely lowered head with slumped shoulders speaks volumes, according to author James Borg, “you’re looking down because you’re feeling down”. It speaks sadness, depression, guilt, defeat, hiding. No wonder the ostrich hides its head in the sand, the big bird often can’t deal with the danger above there, so make it simple, disappear from them- the accusers, the problems, the failures, the mistakes, the regrets. There are things that have knocked us down and maybe kept us down,…questioning whether we will ever be good enough for a God that is so pure and beautiful.  On the temple floor, there is a mob of self-righteous angry men thirsty for blood, waiting for the barbaric thrill of stoning a human being to death. Curious teenage boys, hot-blooded young men, the middle-aged and the elderly united with one quest; “kill the adulteress!”…she represented all their deepest darkest fantasies, all that made them scrub their skin with hot water and soap hoping that t...

One day you will discover that no number or combination of words could ever describe true love’s first touch. This is no physical touch, this is a consuming, fiery yet gentle touch. The combination is mesmerizing, absolutely intoxicating. I can only describe the experience as finally arriving at my destination after decades of confusing and weary travelling. It was liberating, completing, breathtaking. I envied people who had that with Him, people who could go into their secret place and just be filled with the beautiful, peaceful, healing intimacy of the Most High God. A love that consumes you with reckless abandon. And then I found Him. I didn’t bump into him, actually, I sought after Him but somehow my efforts were sabotaged. I went two steps forward and four steps backwards. My attempts just weren’t consistent enough, and even times I tried to focus, it felt like I had a secret enemy lurking in the dark. An enemy that knew me all too well and could get me in a twist ...